Giving up

Self inflicted

Self induced

My mind is a rain storm on the open sea

My heart eternally breaking

This is not up to me

The emotions come like waves

I am endlessly searching for the calm in my storm

Why do I let you have this power over me?

Your heart is empty

Your hands are full of rage

When you see me

You see a puppet that you can easily play

I want to finish breaking

So I can heal in the correct way

I am tired of feeling

I am tired of hurting

I am tired of all this pain

How do I tell me heart to stop?

How do I get my mind to win?

This is a battle I have no control in

God, please take my heart and make it whole

God, please take my life and make it yours

This war inside of me is taking its toll

I am not sure how much longer this can go on

I am tired of taking this in my own hands

I am tired of trying to fix things with my power

This is me

Giving up

Please lead me in the direction that I am supposed to be

Please help me see the path you have for me